When The Church Prays

It’s ironic how my gift of creativity has such a hard time being used to worship God. As a papercrafter I should be able to create gorgeous pages in my Bible. I struggle with it though. The struggle is worse than any other I have in art. Regardless, I still desire to do it. Even though my pages may not be beautiful or even good, God does use them to speak and teach me through the process and that is what matters.

Gather Together

Joy Clair has the best most extensive stamps for Bibles. You can also use them on cards. The Gather Together set was perfect for my recent prayer.

The key to using wet mediums in Bible is clear Gesso! Apply a layer and let it dry. Once it is dry it not only allows no bleed through it primes the surface to accept the medium. For this page I used a combination of Distress Ink and watercolor along with ink to stamp with.

Revelation

As I am writing this post I am having a conversation with God. Complaining about how I resent the church because of the pain and hurt several leaders and members have inflicted on me dating all the way back to my childhood. Gently, he reminds me that I have spent the majority of my life in church, therefore it is natural that the majority of my hurt and pain have happened there and in my family. It is where I have not only physically been the majority of my life, but it is where I have been emotionally invested. The church is made up of people just like me. People hurt sometimes. I need to extend the forgiveness and understanding that I so easily can give the rest of the world to the church.

Until next time ~ Happy Crafting!

Joy Clair New Releases are Live!

I am super excited to share with you two of the new Joy Clair releases! I created a Bible art piece with one and a card wit the other. I also made two ATC with them as well!

Hope

Instead of using the new Hope Stamp Set as a way to express hope, I used it as a way to show strength and take on a warrior attitude. I have Celiac Disease. For years I prayed that God would heal me even though I did not know what I had. Once I got the diagnosis and avoided gluten the symptoms pretty much disappeared. Though my body did grow weary my soul did not – hence the saying and verse!

For the ATC I portrayed a warrior and thought of all of my fellow sisters who struggle with cancer and other diseases.

I found the “We Can Do It” card set in Washington DC last simmer. I gessoed the base and went over it with a wet paint brush and wiped the face clean. Once it was dry I stamped my image and words.

Mermaid at Heart

This might be my favorite new release set! The tail is a perfect sassy flirt and the sayings coordinate beautifully. For the card, I picked up some specialty paper at my local craft store and embossed it. I simply stamped the sentiment on another sheet and layered it. For the tail, I embossed it in black and used watercolor markers to shade it in. I made it shiny with Glossy accents!

I mimicked the process on the ATC, just working on a smaller scale.

Make sure you check out the shop for all the new releases and hop and check out what the other designers did with different stamp sets!

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Color By Faith Blog Hop

I am participating in another exciting blog hop with Joy Clair! This hop is all about the Color By Faith stamp line. I must confess that I am still new to Bible art. These stamps are fabulous and have really helped me learn this new form of art. Over the last few months I have created several pages.

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To celebrate the Color by Faith Blog Hop, Joy Clair Stamps is giving away a $25 Gift Card to One lucky winner. Winner will be chosen at random from the comments left on participating blogs, so make sure to visit each stop and leave a comment. Leave comments by 11:59 pm ET 04-05-2019 on all participating blogs. Winner will be announced on the Joy Clair Blog on 04-30-2019

Unashamed

The first page I created with the Color by Faith line was this one:

I shared this a couple of months ago for another hop.

My Cup Runneth Over

The next page is my favorite so far! The stacked teacups makes me smile 🙂

This also is the first Bible art page I did on YouTube LIVE!

Leave the 99

The last one I am sharing with you is based off of the lyrics of my favorite song –Reckless Love. The little sheep is just darling! Here is how this one came together:

Please make sure you hop through the rest of the blogs provided below. I am a novice on this subject and find so much inspiration in the designers listed below! I am sure you will as well. Also, please subscribe to my YouTube channel. I do a lot with Joy Clair stamps on it and you will get insight into upcoming design team posts 🙂

JoyClair Blog 

MarthaLucia Gomez 

Connie Hyde Mercer 

Angie Cimbalo 

Karen Letchworth 

Jessica Kaiser 

Monica Maier 

Kerry Urbatch 

Donna Idlet 

BetzGolden 

Lindsay Adreon 

Ceal Pritchett 

Jowilna Nolte Helen Gullet

Until next time ~ Happy Crafting!

Be Unashamed

Joy Clair not only has funny pun stamps full of sass they also carry a line of for Bible Journaling. I was immediately drawn to the Unashamed set.

Realization

Recently I discovered the one thing I prided myself on that did not happen to me in my adolescent years was rape or molestation. I had a pretty bad childhood full of divorces, abuse and moving from one low income apartment to the next. Every weekend I was in church between my parents’ homes. I thought He was this big jerk in the sky spewing wrath down on humans. The best way to avoid eternal damnation was to steer clear of sex (That was what every youth leader in the churches I attended said at least). So I did.

Out of the Mouth of Babes

My youngest asked me recently how old I was when I had my first kiss. I did not want to tell him. I said I was “to young” because I was only 12. He then asked me how old the boy was. I told him 18. The next question was “did he go to jail?” He did not, but I do know that he was brought up on charges years later of molesting his younger brother. I felt gross having to recall it. I feel yucky for typing I about it right now.

Of course he wanted to know how old I was when I had my next kiss. I did not want to answer that one either. I was 13 and he was 27 — a youth leader. The thing is I did not really want to make out with either of these men, but since my body seemed to like it and we were technically not having sex it was okay. 30 years later I realize it was not okay. I should have been able to say no and be respected AND they should have never ever looked at me like that since I was just a child.

A Mother’s Rejection

My Mom found out about the 27 year old. It was in 1988 and no one called the police. He no longer worked with the youth, but he still attended church. My Mom blamed me. She told me what an embarrassment I was to her and how young ladies don’t do that with boys. I was ashamed.

Now it is hitting me like a ton of bricks. As a mother myself with my youngest only one year older than I was when it happened I am mad at my Mom. There is no way I could ever blame my child for that and I would come unleashed on the person who ever did that to my kid. What was wrong with me? Why didn’t I have anyone protecting me? Was I a mistake? Again, I felt ashamed.

The Struggle is Real

I know those thoughts are dark. What I just stated is disgusting and it makes me feel gross. I am still struggling with feeling shame and angry at the men. I also still blame myself for it. Maybe I should have worn over sized clothes and no make up. Maybe it would not have happened. These are the things that victims of sexual abuse go through. Our thoughts are not right, but when does feelings ever really line up with facts?

Finding Reassurance Through the Bible

I then pulled out the Unashamed stamp set from Joy Clair and the rush of emotions and tears hit me like a ton of bricks. I got my Bible and started searching for scripture to help me through this. Psalms 103:3-4 “He forgives all your sin; He heals all your diseases. He redeems your life from the Pit; He crowns you with faithful love and compassion.” I created this:

Forgiveness is an Action — Not A Feeling

After I got done with my Bible journal I made a card for my Mom. Though I will probably never hear an apology from her regarding this it is important that I work on forgiving her for me. This will be a process and I don’t feel very forgiving at the moment, but I need to do it.

I have not built up the courage to mail it to her yet. Emotionally I can not handle it going sore. I am terrified of what it will do to me if she responds in anger and lashes out at me. Every time I have tried to talk to her about anything that hurts me she gets ugly with me. I am not strong enough to deal with her anger at me regarding this.

Anger

Finally I created an ATC to document this time in my life and acknowledge the anger I do have.

This blog post was hard to compose. I really wanted to wrap something up in a pretty bow and present it to you, but that would not be authentic. Hopefully by having the courage to talk about the struggle I am going through 30 years after it will allow healing for someone else and/or awareness. You are not alone. We are in this together. Art can help heal! God uses art to speak to me. I no longer think he is a big jerk in the sky. Instead he is full of compassion and can handle all these emotions I have. I unashamed!

#Metoo

BLOG HOP LIST:

Joy Clair Blog

Martha Lucia Gomez

Connie Hyde Mercer

Kerry Urbatch

Karen Letchworth

Angie Cimbalo

Jessica Kaiser

Betz Golden

Lindsay Adreon

Donna Idlet

Ceal Pritchett

Helen Gullet

Happy Crafting!